Hi there! I dont know who you are... I dont know what you want. But because of that is easier to talk to you, my dear friend from the internet.
Strange year. Last year and the one before that and so on, were boring, forgetable, but enjoyable nevertheles. This one is... so new and different and unpredictable but also depressing, uncertain, painful, although manny things are better.
But in general is... meaningless. A meaningless year. I'm becoming this obsessive, uneasy person I dont want, I'm feeling the same feelings I once had in a not so good part of my life, a part of my life that I don't want to remember but I keeeeeeeeep bringing back from time to time.
The difference is... in the past I always had hope. A hope of something I didnt even know what was, yet it helped me. It was a strenght greater than me (in some way) since it was always bigger than my problems, concerns, fears, etc. But now I think that hope was stupid, and cant be optimistic about certain aspects of my life.
I don't know how to deal with so manny things... like anybody!
but at least (I think) the worst has already passed. In some way I think God dont let me make make too manny mistakes, only those that wont cost me the rest of my life. Well, I feel better now! Back to reality.
Thanks internet! Have a nice day...